But I have never realized that maybe I am over-doing it. In the quest to know a lot, always do interesting, challenging things, I may be pushing myself too hard. I always judge myself. I am never satisfied with my current situation. The grass is always greener somewhere where I am not. And that place is always much farther than just the-other-side.
Heres what I mean: I am working towards an advanced degree in computer science. And that takes up all my time. But I am not content with just that. I like venture capital as well. So I am working at a $18M venture fund to gain experience in that. Its great experience and I love doing this. But until recently, I didnt understand that this is not common for most graduate students. Classes, projects, TAing takes up almost all the time for most everyone, including me. And then I find some more hours to devote to that. And then I decided to add to my love for trading and stocks by writing an automated trading system in Java using Interactive Brokers' Trading API. That took a few months of additional weekend nights.
All that is fun, but its crazy. Hectic. Beyond hectic. I hope that now you can start to cope the demands I make of myself all the time. Its not easy at all to do all these things at the same time and to do them reasonably well. And yet I have been doing it for quite some time now. Without even realizing that I am doing this.
And then I wonder why I feel so stressed out sometimes. Do many other people feel the same way? Like there is so much stuff to do and so little time? How do you use your time? Do you focus on one thing at a time (time being used as the period of a couple of months or so - counting all the major stuff going on in one's life at some given point)? Are many people the same as me? Or am I a unique species?